tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3633078855837418943.post5013186084828137922..comments2023-12-19T02:39:41.004-08:00Comments on A Battle Worth Winning: Making my Peace with GodDear Addihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/17720496772113181690noreply@blogger.comBlogger2125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3633078855837418943.post-6447265789427384632015-05-04T18:40:06.365-07:002015-05-04T18:40:06.365-07:00I have asked God too "why didn't you tell...I have asked God too "why didn't you tell me." Here I am, teaching little kids in sharing time in primary that the Holy Ghost will warn you of danger while sin and danger were in my very own home for 20 years. Someday I will ask God that question. But for now the only thing I can come up with is this: God will never, ever mess with the agency of another human being. Ever. My little primary lesson is still true: the Holy Ghost will warn me of dangerous decisions in my path that I can control, but He will not warn me of others decisions. I don't like this answer at all but I want peace so badly as to why God never told me that I would rather believe the whole "he doesn't mess with anyone's agency ever" rather than "He didn't tell me because.....fill in the blank."<br /><br />As far as the apostle extending a calling, well, I choose to believe that they are human so either 1) he made a mistake or 2) this was God's way of giving your hubby one more change to confess. Again, this is just my opinion but it's how I sense of all the leadership callings my hubby served in as well. Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3633078855837418943.post-19377379778935061732015-04-08T22:40:58.669-07:002015-04-08T22:40:58.669-07:00Ugh. I SO get it. Every. Word. I so desperately ju...Ugh. I SO get it. Every. Word. I so desperately just want to UNDERSTAND. Like you said, I want an explanation. Something that makes sense. Something that will let me say, "Oh. OK. Now I get it." Sadly, I don't think we will ever get that. Not here at least. I have been so angry at the Lord too. I've screamed at Him many times saying, "Why?! How could you not tell me?!" And you know what? Its OK. He can take it! He knows we are angry. He knows we are heartbroken. He gets it. And I know He just beams with such love to see us trust in Him our best anyways and realize that He could not overstep the gift of agency--the thing He promised to let us and our husbands have. I know it must kill Him to see us suffer so and see husbands treat their wives so disgracefully. And yet He loves them just as much too and knows they suffer as well. As for the Apostle telling that story--to me that is a total prompting. He may have not known why he was sharing it either. And like you said, your husband did a lot of good and maybe it was needed at that time. Like you said, maybe he needed that stake president/friend to get him through, maybe he needed to fall so greatly in such a big calling to receive the maximize punishment so he could be fully washed clean. A chance to start over. A clean slate. I wish my mind would be wiped clean too! I so admire your faith. This is all so hard. You are so amazing and your story and advice have helped me so very much. Recovery is not clean like I thought it would be. It is downright messy and we can be all over the place. The important thing is that we are headed in the right direction and even have a desire to believe and have faith and trust in the Savior. I love you my fellow trauma trooper.annegirlhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09450772648526256051noreply@blogger.com